A few months back (I wish I knew when, february maybe?) a new tattoo parlour opened up in my town’s China-block. (It’s literally one street with a few shops in it lol.) My best friend L went to this tattoo parlour and loved it. It’s an all female shop (which tops Jaded as Jaded is a mostly female shop), and this place is very mystical and they give free tarot card readings on tuesday.
Yesterday I finally decided to just GO. It felt like it was really the right time. I’m in such a transition phase, just getting over my breakup, putting off school again, in a total rut at work and in the town I live in, planning to move… I felt like, seeing what the cards told me? It couldn’t hurt.
I have an open mind with practically everything. I have a saying that I’ll ‘try just about anything once.’ So if the cards read something interesting, great; if they didn’t really do anything, well it was free and I could shake it off.
So I met with the owner Barb, and it was awesome. Here is this stranger, and I felt like she already knew me. I stayed pretty quiet (as I’m oh so shy) and didn’t give a lot of information about myself except to confirm that things she had ‘a feeling about’ me were true.
She said she works with different decks for everyone, and I got a mix of her crystal deck (because I love crystals and stones), nature deck (ditto) and faerie/goddess deck, and we got down to business.
It’s so weird because the cards really spoke about how I’ve been feeling lost, unsure of my place in the world, the lul I’ve been having in my life. They said I have a giving, nurturing, calming nature and that people around me take advantage of that and try to suck my spirit from me (which I feel sometimes.)
They spoke of me needing to go on a journey, and it’ll be a positive journey and I should find my purpose in life elsewhere, definitely not where I am. They mentioned how I’m feeling down about love, but that it was a positive act that I got out of that relationship. Which I truly feel.
They said I’m an enviromentalist (which I am), and I need to focus on the creative things in my life.
And all I need to have is a little faith.
So you guys may read this and just see a bunch of mumbo jumbo. But I think it’s fascinating that a few cards that I picked out on a whim… spoke that much about me. I believe in this stuff man. And now I just need to believe in myself.
I know that Josh and I weren’t good for each other. And talking with Barb about that, it made it clear. I told her that being with Josh, when we first got together, it was like dejavu. I knew that I had met him somewhere before, in a past life. I’ve felt like I’ve met him in multiple lives really. And so it was so easy to slip into. And she explained that usually, those people, aren’t always so good for you. Maybe being with those people in past lives, diverted you from your course, maybe they lead to a downward spiral or something, and it’s something you need to beat in order to move on with your higher purpose. Especially when I told her that when Josh and I first got together, I was happy, it was so comfortable and easy, but I felt this buzzing in my head at the beginning, like a warning.
I’m glad that she reaffirmed for me that leaving that relationship was healthy and positive. And the move is going to be healthy and positive. I’m so much more excited to get out of here, even on my own. I found this adorable 1 bedroom apartment in downtown Chinatown Vancouver… and I’m PRAYING that it’ll still be there when I’m more looking for a new home. I wouldn’t be allowed a roommate there… it’s for 1 person only. But it sounds simply adorable and perfect for me. Ha ha.